I work well with others

When they leave me the f*ck alone!

Ever want to answer every question with the middle finger? Thats where I am today. I am tired of my every mistake being pointed out and made fun out. Yes, I make mistakes but that is a sign that I am trying. I'm gonna start getting shitty cause people have just about pushed me to that point.

I feel deprived of food that i love like taco bell...I havent had Taco Bell in over 2 months! I friggin love Taco Bell.. but instead I came home and had a frozen 7 point meal.

I made a kick ass fruit salad tonight though. :)

Boo to this week. Yay for the weekend!

So far I haven't lost anything this week! Ugh but I shouldnt weigh myself everyday. It's just a habit I've gotten into. Hopefully by Monday I will be at least -.6 and be back on track again. I need to make myself walk. It's so hot when Margo and I go right after work I need to go about 8 o'clock.


We went to Applebees because they have a weight watchers menu and I got the shrimp. Not satisfying. I want some donuts, a big Mac and a large diet mt dew with crushed ice! Gosh! But I have to behave. I am goin to Greensburg Saturday and I am drinkingggggg while there! I can't wait! I miss them so much they're like my family! Then next week is Thunder of Love! Party time!


I went to aldi's tonight and they have all kinds of snacks, waffles and breakfast sandwiches called fit&active. They look do good an were only like 1.99! Check it out for sure!



Well I am off to read my book :)
If anyone is interested in the books I am getting rid of let me know and I can make you a list.There arent many but enough to get ya through a few months depending on how fast you read. Let me know.. they are $3 a piece.

She flew up to heaven on the wings of angels

Why did she have to go
So young I just don't know why
Things happen half the time
Without reason, without rhyme

Lovely, sweet young woman
Daughter, wife and mother
Makes no sense to me
I just have to believe

She flew up to heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waitin'
And I know she's smilin' sayin', "Don't worry 'bout me"

Loved ones she left behind
Just tryin' to survive
And understand the why
Feelin' so lost inside

Anger shot straight at God
Then askin' for His love
Empty with disbelief
Just hopin' that maybe

She flew up to heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waitin'
And I know she's smilin' sayin', "Don't worry 'bout me"

It's hard to say goodbye
Her picture in my mind
Will always be of times I'll cherish
And I won't cry 'cause

She flew up to heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waitin'
And I know she's smilin' sayin', "Don't worry 'bout me
Don't worry 'bout me, don't worry 'bout

Something on the way home made me think of Aunt Cindy. Gosh I miss her and think of her every day. Sometimes I still think it isn't real. Like when you first wake up in the morning or when something happens and you think "I need to tell Cindy this story" but then reality sets in and you realize that person isn't here any more. At night when I prayed I used to tell her about my day and how much I missed her and how much I wished she could see her babies grow up and how I wished I could just have one more day to spend with her. I don't know if she can hear my or not but I like to think she is watching over all of us and can hear us.

It's been two years now and I have yet to go to the cemetary. I didn't get to see the burial...and I regret not going. She was my aunt too and I deserved to be there as much as any one else. I need to get together with Mom and go some time so I know where it is and I can go there and talk to her.

There are just some things I will never understand about your death & the things that followed but I believe God has a plan and it isn't for me to understand I guess.

A little bit of THINspiration

I gained .6 lbs this week... I have been racking my brain on how I did it but it happened and all I can do is try even harder this week. Walking this coming week is a must! If it's too hot to walk I will find a pool to swim in! Exercise is now being incorporated into my LIFE CHANGE. Here is some THINspiration...... I need to hang these up on the fridge!

Bean chili on a hot day

Who makes chili when it's over 100 degrees out? I do! had to try this recipe I got from my Grams. It's about 4 WW points (2 on the old system). We didn't rinse all the beans like it says too simply cause I don't follow directions properly. Jason rated it a 7 1/2 but it was good for something different.

BEAN CHILI:

2 cans diced tomatoes
2 cans chicken broth
1 chopped green pepper (we didn't add)
1 chopped onion (we didn't add)
variety o different beans choices 4 or 5. Kidney, blak, baked, chili, pinto, ect. (all rinsed at drained)
1 can of corn (rinsed and drained)
1 package dry chili mix
simmer in crock pot
1 & 1/2 cups= about 4 points

I definatly dont feel on my game this week. I am always hungry. I havent been too bad but it will be nothing like last week.

Time to play with the dog, fold laundry, read & turning in early tonight. tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!!!!!! WoOOOoooHoooOOOOoo!

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A life change

Since I am doing weight watchers I keep reminding myself that this isn't a "diet" its a "life change". I can't go back to my old ways EVER. I was making poor choices when it came to eating & drinking. I am just glad I am not the only one making "life changes" right now. It is nice that we all can help and support each other in this process. Any tips, ideas or strategies you have please send them my way!

I know I shouldn't but I step on the scale every day. And every day it seems to be different.. it's up, then down, up, then down. So frustrating. I guess nothing counts except that weigh in on Saturday. I did cheat yesterday and had pizza for lunch (2 pieces, not bad) and chinese for dinner (a lot of chinese!!) But it was soooooo good! Oh well. Today I was back on my game. here are some feed back on new products I have tried!

Fiber Plus bars- AMAZING!! They taste like a candy bar. I had the chocolate chip & chocolaty peanut butter and they are both outstanding! They're only 3 WW points too!

Smart Sense Diet Green Tea Berry (Kmart)- Really good when you are looking for something other than water with 0 everything but sodium is 20. I got the citrus tonight but haven't tried it yet.

Mio drink flavoring- very good. I have tried the berry pomegrant & peach mango and they are both tasty and help me suck down the water faster & easier. It's a little pricey at $4 a pop but worth it if you don't like water.

2 more days till weigh in... if I lost ANYTHING I will be happy since I lost so much last week. As long as I didnt gain I will be ok. Then I will have to move on to plan B to kick start the "life change" cycle again.

Anyone know where I can get mini thins with ephedra? You use to be able to get them at gas stations but now they are all "ephedra fee" wtf.. not cool.

Nothing came to those who didn't try.

I am finally at a point in my life where I feel good about things. I feel like I have been making good choices and they are paying off. I may not be the skinnies, the prettiest or the smartest person around but I am me and that should be good enough for everyone else. If you aren't a part of my life I am sorry but it's your loss and I am not gonna fret over it. I feel good about where my life is headed and I hope you are on board with me. I know I have changed over the past year. Yeah, I've grown up. I don't have to go out every weekend or get drunk at every single family gathering. I am not a teenager any more. It's fun every once in awhile but not every weekend. I have priorities and responsibilities... Yes it sucks but it's called being an adult.


For not knowing what to write about tonight I didnt do too bad if I do say so myself.


Back to The Notebook. :)

Picture of the day

Song of the day:

Raymond here

Movie of the day:

Easy A (rated B+)